I know it is hurting
you very much, dear; as it hurts me as much to hear the news. It happened so
unexpectedly and no one would want it that way, if we have a right to choose
what is in life.
It
was yesterday noon when I answered the phone with your dad telling me that your
sister would not be able to come back for the class. He asked to be excused and
hoping I could make arrangements for the oral test. I told him it would be okay
as it would be on the next day and you and your sister just needed to get ready
for it. There would be no worry as you are so good, that’s what I told him.
He
was in high spirits, as he sounded, showing his appreciation, which I NEVER, EVER expected was his last appreciation
for just such a simple task to be fulfilled. Just imagine, at that minute, all
of you were happily shopping, having such a sweet, wondrous family outing
together.
How
could this be true when you turned up for your night lesson and finished it with
any interruption? It was your daddy who had always been waiting to pick you up
after the lesson and so, when you had to wait, I just thought he was late. I
waved you goodbye and jumped into my car and drove off. I never knew how long
you waited for your dad who could never come to fetch you nor how you reacted
when someone else picked you up and released the terrible news to you…..
Sorry,
dear, if only I had known about it earlier, I would never have left you waiting
alone. I would have held you tightly in my arms because I really do understand
how it feels to lose someone special, someone who loved you so much, someone
who had always been there to hug you, support you and share so much joy, seeing
you growing up.
But,
in a matter of two hours he left you for your class, he was gone forever. If I
were you, I would have screamed, asking why God had been so cruel to take him
away – he wasn’t in the right age to do so, as many would say. There are going
to be lots of whys and hows, and yet nobody could tell you satisfying answers.
I know the pain is piercing for you
and your family, but dear, you just have to walk out of it somehow. Life is a
long way for you - though without Dad - but I am sure you and your siblings and
your dearest mum would be able to hold hands together to overcome the pain
caused. Neither would it be your dad’s wish to watch you over from somewhere in
the night time sky as a new star to see you in depression and grief. He would
absolutely hope to see you live in sunshine and love,grow up strong and
beautiful, lovable and kind, with a golden heart.
Remember the dreams and hopes your dad
had had for you and your siblings, remember the happy times you had had
together, remember every cherished moments – all these will turn into magical
power to lead you through the difficult times you are nowin. Just trust he is
always there for you, invisible but guarding over you, just as God has always
done to us.
Remember the lessons of Tessa who lost
her dearest friend, Leah? Remember how we shared the lessons together and how I
told you that only when you have lost someone special and dear, will you be
able to understand Tessa’s loss and the pain she suffered? I am so sorry that
it happened so fast to you and your family, really I do. But if Tessa could
walk out of her pain, you could do too. Saying goodbye to your dad doesn’t mean
that you do not love him anymore, it’s just letting Dad to live in your heart
forever.
It’s not a shame to cry and shed your
tears of grief. It’s in fact wrong to bury your grief deep in your heart and
pretend it wasn’t there all the while. Let these tears turn into supplements that
will bring wondrous harvest to your garden of love in your heart. You will be
blessed with love and care around you, with so many willingly, readily lending
a shoulder for you to lean on as WE ARE
THERE FOR YOU!
Just
be strong to face the world and overcome any obstacles blocking in your path.
If God has closed a door for you, he definitely will open another for you, so
lift up your face in pride and tell the world: I AM READY!!!
